Friday, March 6, 2009

some things are better said

Ive never watched Bridezilla. I just saw the clips from the show a few minutes ago and I saw some brides-to-be bacame crazy and out of control. I get that.

I mean, i didnt go crazy or out of control before my wedding. I just became stressed out. I needed help, but no one offered. And Im not the kind of person to ask around for help. I dealt with my wedding preparations all by myself. Even on the day itself. I never get anyone to come with me to go for fittings, look for wedding stuff and whatnot. Maybe sometimes my sister Aisyah would accompany me to help me around. But most of the time, I would be alone. So there.

So can you imagine how hectic my wedding day was, when I was the only one who knew everything, all the details, the guest, the event flow etc? And I was still at home at 12pm on Saturday, when I should be there from the morning. And I had to run around the house to settle things for other people. Penat ok! And stress!

I went beserk a little bit that morning when Hakeem went missing to have coffee with his friends, and Hadi had not gotten his hair cut yet. So I was screaming to everyone to get things settled, and I was ready to get in the car and leave for Putrajaya when everyone's still menggoyang kaki. Frustrated and mad with everyone for not cooperating, another human being had the guts to ask me, what about her kids, since 2 of them were the flower girls. At that moment, I totally didnt remember about the flower girls, because I thought my mom had settled that. And she had the guts to say that I didnt care about her and her kids, and didnt even know that they're my flower girls. (This, I discovered she said this when I was back home last month)

FYI, I personally choose the flower girls, and I picked TWO of your precious daughters because I CARE about you, and I care about my mother. If I dont care, I wouldnt pick any of your girls, because I think they're nuisance!

And because I was mad at my siblings, doesnt make any right for her to say I was sombong and berlagak depan dia that day. Sakit hati betul. I remember I was screaming and mad at everyone that day, in front of her, and she just looked at me. What do you expect? If you were in my shoes, you'd go crazy. As crazy as you were when you broke down and starts to badmouth everyone in my family in front of my MOM. How could you say bad things about her own kids and husband in front of her????

Ive always had a soft spot for you, because you were so close with my mom, and you were so nice to me and my siblings. And now I know you're just being two-faced. You were being nice in front of us for your own benefit. And you talked about us to other people, make stories and tell bad things. How could you. My mother was so hurt by you. She trusted you the most.

And to think about it, padan muka kau accident lepas attend my majlis kawin. Padan muka anak kau kena jahit kat dahi. Dah kena macam tu pun tak sedar-sedar lagi???

Im upset. Most of the time, I'd be thinking about this, over and over again.

Hadi, if you are reading this, lots of things happened back home. A LOT! I didnt have the heart to leave Umi like that, but I had to. You'll never know who backstabbed us since forever. But with this, I hope you have an idea who. And now Im glad everything's out in the open. Finally we know.

10 comments:

Mrs Li - Faeeza Yusoff said...

ohhh, was it da story yg u mad glee on prev post 2..?anyhow, i dooo agreee yg keje kawin ni sgt laaa pnatttttt puan sarrrr! BUT, alhmdlh, i do hv ppl around me, esp mama n moklong dat HELP ME A LOT kalo x sure terbengkalai mjls ni :( yet, urs dh selesai kn ;) Alhmdlhhh, u live happily dh pum :D now pray 4 me lak ;p senyum sokmo okai :D?

twisted-dolly said...

yeap that's the one. yeayyyy ur getting married!!! congratulations and semoga bahagia :)

hadi said...

serious sedih gila. macam mana boleh jadi macam ni?
kaklong kena cerita lagi detail ni kat hadi.

Zurin said...

omg, beb, been there, done that. I can SO relate with you cuz almost the same thing happened to me on my wedding with this one person.

Maybe every family has one of those kot. ;p

botolbiru said...

kak sarah
relax, everything was ok rite
u had been married more than half a year right now or less
and i could see u're happiness now

everything happened for a reason
at least u could be satisfied with the afford for ur wedding.

botolbiru said...

kak sarah
relax, everything was ok rite
u had been married more than half a year right now or less
and i could see u're happiness now

everything happened for a reason
at least u could be satisfied with the afford for ur wedding.

twisted-dolly said...

Hadi: Sedih gila di. Umi lagi sedih. Kaklong baru cite the whole thing kat angah. Nanti kite skype i'll tell you EVERYTHING. Banyak gileeeee

Zurin: Yeah I guess so. Tapi frustrated kan bila ada org mcm tu???

Hazirah: Yeah mmg dah lama. I am happy pun. Tapi some ppl mmg tak boleh tgk org lain happy. Dengki saja dalam hati. Plus cite ni baru kitorg discover tru family members jugak. Mmg sedih laa. Anywayy thanks k! :)

botolbiru said...

that people have nothing to do
ignore them je
many people (including me) are happy to see the happiness in the family

mulut org ni,ssh sket nk jage
at least we know where we stand, everything will be okay.

yeah, btw ur bro is so cute.
nk cubit pipi die.heheh

fatin said...

ohh sarr..i'm facing the same things to..doing things on my own..urgh..struglling with work..oh tell me about it..
my wedding is just around the corner..everything is still all over the places..rs cm nk amik cuti sebuln b4 the day *sigh*

twisted-dolly said...

dont worry fatin. it will come around. but hey, amik laa cuti lama sikittt! baru laa tak pening2. i wish im in msia so i can help you out. I suke je benda2 nk plan2 ni haha