a note

Came across this note in FB, and just wants to share it in here for you, as well for my own personal reference.

Mengapa Hawa tercipta saat Adam tertidur dan Hawa melahirkan saat dirinya terbangun?

Seorang laki-laki jika dia kesakitan, maka dia akan membenci. Sebaliknya wanita, saat dia kesakitan, maka semakin bertambah sayang dan cintanya,, Seandainya Hawa diciptakan dari Adam As saat Adam terjaga, pastilah Adam akan merasakan sakit keluarnya Hawa dari sulbinya, hingga dia membenci Hawa. Akan tetapi Hawa diciptakan dari Adam saat dia tertidur, agar Adam tidak merasakan sakit dan tidak membenci Hawa. Sementara seorang wanita akan melahirkan dalam keadaan terjaga, melihat kematian dihadapannya, namun semakin sayang dan cinta nya kepada anak yang dilahirkan bahkan ia akan menebus nya dengan kehidupannya.

Sesungguhnya Allah menciptakan Hawa dari tulang rusuk yang bengkok yang tugasnya adalah melindungi Qalbu(jantung, hati nurani). Oleh karena itu, tugas Hawa adalah menjaga qalbu. Kemudian Allah menjadikan nya bengkok untuk melindungi qalbu dari sisi yang kedua. Sementara Adam diciptakan dari tanah, dia akan menjadi petani, tukang batu, tukang besi, dan tukang kayu. Wanita selalu berinteraksi dengan perasaaan, dengan hati, dan wanita akan menjadi seorang ibu yang penuh kasih sayang, seorang saudari yang penyayang, seorang putri yang manja, dan seorang istri yang penurut.

Dan wajib bagi Adam untuk tidak berusaha meluruskan tulang yang bengkok tersebut, seperti yang dikabarkan oleh Nabi Muhammad SAW, “jika seorang lelaki meluruskan yang bengkok tersebut dengan serta merta, maka dia akan mematahkannya.” Maksud nya adalah dengan kebengkokan tersebut adalah perasaan yang ada pada diri seorang wanita yang mengalahkan perasaan seorang laki-laki.

Maka wahai Adam janganlah merendahkan perasaan Hawa, dia memang diciptakan seperti itu. Apabila seseorang wanita mengatakan dia sedang bersedih, tetapi dia tidak menitikkan airmata, itu berarti dia sedang menangis di dalam hatinya. Apabila dia tidak menghiraukan kamu setelah kamu menyakiti hatinya, lebih baik beri dia waktu untuk menenangkan hatinya sebelum kamu meminta maaf. Dan wanita sulit untuk mencari sesuatu yang dia benci untuk orang yang paling dia sayang ...

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Harini hari minggu!

Stressss sbb taktau nak buat apa. Mood yg sgt tak best, sbb benda yg plan berminggu2 tiba2 tak buat sbb benda bodoh. Sakit nya hatiiiiii.

Dah lah lapar, tapi takde mood punya pasal, jadinya tak makan lah. Rasa nak lari je dari rumah sekejap. Boleh? Nak pegi menghirup udara segar sorang-sorang, tenangkan fikiran. Boleh? Boleh ke tak ni???

First time rasanya post yg emo. Ke penah je before this?

breathe in, breathe out

Cepatnyaaa time flies! Its already the second week of Ramadhan, and I can barely breathe.

I planned to finish off all my sewings/tempahan BEFORE Ramadhan starts, but Im still halfway. Sigh.

I planned to make some kuih for berbuka everyday, yet until now habuk pun tarak. Semua frozen, or beli from Kak Norzie, aka akak kueh "bazaar".

I planned to make kuih raya on the second week, but langsung tak start lagi. Next week maybe?

I look forward to weekends even more so now, because my weekdays has been pretty much packed. With what, you asked? Just to keep it short and sweet; babysitting, sewing, house chores, melayan "bonda", cook, and lately, masak for jualan utk berbuka.

My day starts at 9am (I know its not THAT early), but it ends around 10-11pm. (Bare in mind I have no rest at all in between). And then starts again at 4.30am. It has been none stop for the past 2 weeks or more, and my body aches all over. I am not complaining though. I love what Im doing right now, keeping myself busy and take my mind of things. But sometimes I do miss the couch, just relaxing during the day watching TV hehehh

But then again, my weekends is more hectic and tiring than weekdays! Shall start tomorrow from sahur, straight until evening, or maybe until terawih? Thinking about it makes me nervous, scared and tired already!

Seriously, I felt at ease right now because I have another 30 minutes to spare before I go and pick up hubby from work. Pity him, everyday he comes home late. And today, he asked me to pick him up at 8pm. Yes people. 8 PM. We broke fast alone for the past 2-3 days. Sunyiiiiii.

Raya is around the corner, our baju raya is still in a form of cloth. Pray for me I have enough time to make it ready by raya.

Ok my time is up. Better kemas sikit2 akibat ribut hasil 2 budak yg naughty tadi. So toodles people! And selamat berbuka orang2 di Malaysia, since its 7.35pm already ;)

And oh yeah, since it is still not too late, Selamat Menyambut Ramadhan! Jom tambah amal ibadat jom!

Update: Hubby just called and asked me to pick him up at 9 instead!!!

I noticed Ive been very lazy since early this year. Whenever Im in front of my lappie to blog, I seem to stare at the screen for a long time without typing anything and then finally decided to close the browser.

It seems that I have nothing to blog about anymore. Trust me, I have tons! But the mood is not there anymore. In my mind, I'm constantly blogging, day and night. But nothing come out when I finally have the time to type it all out. We have been pretty busy ever lately, and I have been very busy lately. Although I do have time to Facebook, but I have no time to write. At all. *sigh*

I miss my blogging time. Honestly I do. I want to write so many things. About my birthday, our anniversary, my surprise to him, his surprise to me, and our trip home recently and activities during the weekends. And I don't have any excuses.

Maybe Im done with blogging?

I dont know. But I think I still do want to keep blogging time to time. Maybe not as much as I used to. I remember Ayah commented that all I do all day was to blog. That was a year ago. I remember that I used to have at least one post every week. And sometimes more. Now? Not even one in a month! Or was it two?

So friends (I know most of the readers (not that many though) are my friends), please bear with me. I will write once in a while, but as of now, it wont be much.

I am going back this FRIDAY!

*jumping up and down*

*jumping up and down*

a note to you

"Jangan sedih-sedih tau. Tu bukan Sarah yang H***** kenal."

Bila saya ckp "Tak sedih dah. Dont worry." Dia pulak kata, "Worry lah. Sarah kawan perempuan yang baik, so kena worry."

Sangat terharu. Banyak kata-kata semangat yg diberikan, tak lupa juga nasihat dan ayat-ayat membina. Selama kita kawan, takde lah nampak sangat kita rapat kan, tapi sesungguhnya bila sesekali chat, awk sangat mengenali saya, dan risau kan saya. Dah lama kita kenal, sejak sekolah rendah lagi. Selalunya banyak gaduh and kutuk mengutuk. Dah besar, usik-mengusik pula. Kenangan oh kenangan. Memang rindu zaman muda, zaman tak ada masalah kehidupan. Yang perlu dirisaukan adalah markah periksa. Sekarang, macam-macam dugaan dan halangan yang kita lalui, masing-masing dengan jalan, cara dan perihal sendiri. Tapi kita sama-sama memberi semangat.

Bila chat dengan awak, kadang-kadang rasa sedih. Rasa nak menangis meraung-raung menceritakan perihal hidup sendiri. Saya berikan ikon senyuman untuk awak, tetapi realiti menahan sebak, sakit mahu menelan air liur. Tapi saya tak mahu awak risau. Saya tahu awak banyak hal lain yang perlu dirisaukan. Awak ada jalan sendiri yang penuh onak. Saya risaukan awak juga, tapi saya tak tahu macam mana nak kuatkan semangat awak, sebab semangat saya pun sudah tak kuat. Ya Allah, lindungilah sahabatku ini, berikan lah dia semangat untuk meneruskan perjuangannya, semoga dia tidak putus asa, dan tidak lupa harapan keluarga dan rakan-rakan. Sesungguhnya dia sahabat yang baik. Saya tahu dalam senyuman awak, penuh serba gelisah. Saya sentiasa doakan yang terbaik untuk awak. Sentiasa menyebut-nyebut nama awak kepada suami, menceritakan sesungguhnya awak sahabat saya.

Saya sentiasa ingat kata-kata awak. Setiap satu saya jadikan semangat, dan berikan saya kekuatan untuk percaya, suatu hari nanti kebahagiaan akan tiba, Insyallah saya doakan, untuk saya dan untuk awak. Semoga awak dapat capai apa yang awak impikan. Jangan gusar bila sesekali terasa kehilangan arah tuju. Satu hari nanti awak pasti akan mendapat jalan yang lurus, dan awak akan berlari untuk mengejarnya. Tidak lagi merangkak-rangkak. Amin.

Saya harap kita dapat berjumpa, dan bersua muka. Dapat bergelak ketawa dan lupakan segala apa yang kita pernah bicara di dunia cyber. Lupakan kesedihan, kerana saya tahu awak dapat membuatkan saya lupa keluh kesah dengan kerenah awak yang melucukan.

Kadang-kadang saya marah dengan sikap endah tak endah awak. Tapi saya tahu awak sembunyikan diri sendiri, sesekali dia keluar dan rupanya awak seorang yang amat teliti. Sentiasa teliti, memahami dan mendengar sekeliling awak. Memerhati dalam diam. Fikiran awak tajam. Perspektif awak sentiasa positif. Saya beruntung dapat mengenali awak. Hati budi awak. Saya tahu awak tak membaca ruangan kecil saya ini. Tetapi saya harap awak tahu, saya amat menghargai kehadiran awak dalam hidup saya.

Dan insyallah, bila saya jadi ibu, kalau saya tidak menamakan salah satu anak saya sempena nama awak, saya akan ceritakan perihal awak, 'godfather' mereka. Jangan risau, yang baik-baik sahaja ;)

Insyallah suatu hari nanti. Kita akan sampai ke destinasi yang kita impikan.

Perfumes for sale

ORDERS ARE NOW CLOSED!

Hello peeps!

Here's a list of the perfumes available.

These are original perfumes, and please I would prefer no requests on other perfumes that are not in the list because I dont have as much time as before.

Please visit Perfumes Galore!

Thanks!

p/s Shipping costs will apply from KL.

FOR HIM

Beckham Intimately Night for Men 75 edt RM90
Beckham Signature 75 edt RM90
Burberry Touch for Men 30 edt RM85
Burberry Weekend 30 edt RM85
CK One 200 edt RM150
CK One Summer 100 edt RM120
CK Contradiction 100 edt RM120
CK Truth 100 edt RM150
CK Eternity 100 edt RM150
CK Euphoria 100 edt RM200
CK Free 100 edt RM200
Davidoff Echo 100 edt RM140
D&G The One for Men 100 edt RM230
D&G Dolce & Gabbana 125 edt RM230
FCUK Him 50 edt RM80
Guess Suede 75 edt RM100
Gucci Envy 100 edt RM200
Versace Eau Fraiche 100 edt RM190
Versace Pour Homme 50 edt RM160
Versace Pour Homme 100 edt RM190


FOR HER

Armani Idole D'Armani 50 edp RM240
Armani Code 75 edp RM270
Burberry London 30 edp RM85
Burberry Touch 30 edp RM85
Burberry Weekend 30 edp RM85
Beckham Signature Women 75 edt RM100
Beckham Intimately Night 50 edt RM90
Beckham Intimately Night 75 edt RM110
Britney Spears Belive 30 edp RM80
Britney Spears Hidden Fantasy 30 edp RM80
Britney Spears Hidden Fantasy 50 edp RM100
Britney Spears Fantasy 30 edp RM80
Britney Spears Fantasy 100 edp RM120
Britney Spears Fantasy Circus 100 edp RM140
Britney Spears Curious 50 edp RM100
Britney Spears Curious 100 edp RM100
Bvlgari BVL 2 Pour Femme 50ml edp RM160
Bvlgari Omnia 25 edp RM120
Bvlgari Omnia 40 edp RM140
Bvlgari Omnia 65 edp RM200
Bvlgari Jade 40 edt RM140
Bvlgari Rose Essentials 50 edt RM160
Bvlgari Voile de Jasmin 50 edt RM150
Bvlgari Voile de Jasmin 100 edt RM180
Bvlgari Pour Femme 100 edp RM210
Bvlgari Pour Femme 25 edp RM100
Bvlgari Jasmin Noir 50 edp RM200
Bvlgari Jasmin Noir 100 edp RM225
Bvlgari Rose Essentials 100 edt RM225
CK Contradiction Women 50 edp RM120
CK IN2U for Her 150 edt RM180
CK Secret Obsession 100 edp RM150
CK Euphoria for Women 50 edp RM180
CK Euphoria for Women 100 edp RM240
Chloe Chloe 90 edt RM120
Chloe Chloe 30 edt RM70
Chloe Narcisse 30 edt RM70
Chloe Narcisse 100 edt RM120
Christina Aguilera Inspire 100 edp RM120
D&G D&G for Women 100 edt RM220
D&G The One 50 edp RM220
D&G The One Rose 75 edp RM260
Davidoff Cool Water 100 edt RM130
Elizabeth Arden Arden Beauty 100 edt RM90
Elizabeth Arden Mediterranean 100 edt RM120
Elizabeth Arden Splendour 125 edp RM100
Elizabeth Arden 5th Ave 75 edp RM80
Elizabeth Arden 5th Ave 125 edp RM90
Elizabeth Arden True Love 100 edt RM80
Elizabeth Arden Green Tea 100 edt RM80
Elizabeth Arden Sunflowers 100 edt RM80
Elizabeth Arden Red Door 100 edt RM90
Elizabeth Arden Red Door Velvet 50 edp RM80
Elizabeth Taylor White Diamonds 100 edt RM100
Escada Escada S 30 edp RM120
Escada Moon Sparkle 50 edt RM120
Escada Ocean Lounge 30 edt RM120
Estee Lauder Beyond Paradise 50 edp RM170
FCUK FCUK Her 50 edt RM80
Gucci Gucci 50 edp RM190
Gucci Gucci 75 edp RM240
Gucci Flora 50 edt RM200
Gucci Flora 75 edt RM250
Gucci Gucci II 75 edp RM240
Guess Guess for Women (Pink) 30 edp RM90
Guess Guess for Women (Pink) 75 edp RM120
Givenchy Organza 50 edp RM170
Givenchy Ysatis 50 edt RM170
Givenchy Amarige 100 edt RM230
Giorgio Giorgio for Women 90 edt RM120
Hilary Duff With Love 100 edp RM95
Jlo Glow 100 edt RM150
Jlo Glow 50 edt RM100
Jlo Sunkissed Glow 100 edt RM140
Jlo Love at First Glow 100 edp RM140
Jlo Live Luxe 50 edp RM120
Lanvin Rumeur 30 edp RM90
Lanvin Arpege 50 edp RM160
Lanvin Arpege 100 edp RM200
Lolita Lempicka Lolita Lempicka 30 edp RM110
Lolita Lempicka Lolita Lempicka 100 edp RM170
Marc Jacobs Marc Jacobs 30 edp RM110
Nina Ricci L'Air du Temps 100 edt RM180
Prada Prada 80 edp RM240
Paris Hilton Just Me 30 edp RM80
Paris Hilton Paris Hilton 30 edp RM80
Ralph Lauren Romance 30 edp RM160
Ralph Lauren Notorious 50 edp RM100
Ralph Lauren Ralph 30 edt RM140
Ralph Lauren Ralph 50 edt RM180
Ralph Lauren Ralph Rocks 50 edt RM120
Ralph Lauren Ralph Rocks 100 edt RM160
Ralph Lauren Ralph Lauren Blue 75 edt RM170
SJP Lovely 50 edp RM120
SJP Lovely 100 edp RM150
SJP Covet 100 edp RM100
SJP Pure Bloom 100 edp RM100
Versace Bright Crystal 30 edt RM150
Versace Versace Women 100 edp RM170
Versace New Woman 100 edp RM240
Versace Crystal Noir 90 edt RM230
Vera Wang Princess 50 edt RM160
Vera Wang Princess 100 edt RM220
YSL Elle 50 edp RM140
YSL Parisienne 30 edp RM160
YSL Parisienne 50 edp RM230
YSL Baby Doll 30 edt RM120
YSL Cinema 50 edp RM170
YSL Yvresse 125 edt RM170
YSL Young Sexy Lovely 30 edt RM90
YSL Young Sexy Lovely 75 edt RM120
YSL Opium for Women 50 edt RM160
YSL Opium for Women 100 edt RM240
YSL Paris 30 edt RM140
YSL Paris 50 edt RM200
YSL Paris 125 edt RM240

Taking orders : Perfumes

Mother's Day is coming, so there's a massive sale on perfumes! My favourite sale :D
I even bought a few bottles for myself heh heh *so tamak*

So since Im going back to Malaysia for a holiday end of this month, Im opening up orders until end of this week. But bear in mind, you will only be able to get your perfumes once Im in Malaysia, which is on the 29 May 2010.

Check out this space tonight, will update a whole list of perfume bargains!

another trip

We're going back to Malaysia for two weeks!!!!

Another 25 more days to go.


Cant wait!!!

Easter Long Weekend

Like Ive mentioned before, we were actually planning to go camping.
Yet somehow over here, its not possible to do that at the very last minute. Most of the camping spots that I called were fully booked, and they told me it was fully booked weeks before! And you can't just camp anywhere you want. *sigh*

So we were back to square one. Didnt know what to do and where to go. Since hubby was planning to go fishing, on Friday we decided to go fishing near Swan River after lunch, which was nice. We went to a small park near East Perth and caught just one, a blowfish! LOL!
It was a nice day, we had our picnic blanket and some snacks, and I had my book.

Saturday came and hubby decided to take me to Yanchep National Park. There's a lake there, so we thought we could fish there. Bila sampai mcm frustrated sbb tak boleh. Dah laa nk naik boat around the lake pun takde. We walked around the park, saw some koalas sleeping in the trees, and took some pictures. We had a picnic near the lake, then we went straight to the Crystal cave.

It was our first time in a cave, so everything was very new and interesting to us. It was kind of humid in there, so my skin started to get oily, maka gambar2 yg diambil sungguh laa buruk heheh. After Yanchep, we went to a beach nearby, Two Rocks, utk apa lagi, fishing lah! Hubby is kindda addicted now, hari-hari ingat fishing je. I got bored while he fishes, so I started to feed the fish dkt tepi batu-batu with bread. Hubby mcm marah sikit sbb ckp kacau org nak mancing ehehehehe. We stayed there until petang, and balik dgn tangan kosong. Bohooo.

The next day I decided to go to Fremantle to see the Street Arts Festival, which was held every year. We went last year tu pun kebetulan pegi Fremantle tiba-tiba tgk ramai org. So we went again this year to watch the buskers performs, and it was a great fun! I really-really enjoyed the festival, seeing different cultures and performances.


This mime guy is a regular in Perth city, and I used to watch him during the weekends in the city.


This guy is funny! Unfortunately we only got to watch the last 15 minutes of his show.


They are awesome! They're Tribal village dance band, and they have some really cool tribal songs and dance moves. We really enjoyed their show.

Anddd there's this one funny makcik dancing in the middle of the show, wearing a yellow tshirt that said "Support Penang", so Im guessing she's Malaysian! You can see her pictures in my FB ;)

So yeah, basically that's what we did during the hols. Monday we just stayed at home, kepenatan sbb hari-hari jln. :D

Today

I promise to myself that I will do the things that I need to do...

to achieve the things that I want.

Insyallah.

Motivation. Motivation. Keep on the fire woman!

Knock knock

We had a great Easter weekend!
But of course, we didnt go camping. But we managed to find other things to do and go for the long weekend :D

Will blog and upload pictures later!

Things change, and Ive changed. Literally?

I was a six, and then eight. Now Im a TEN, with a possibility of a *yikes* TWELVE.

Should I be scared now?

Of hope and faith

I have a story.

Some may know, some may not. Ive been waiting to write about this for a while. And so...

30 January 2010

This day, I found out that Im pregnant.

It was the second test I did that month, the first was a week before, but it was negative. I was a bit frustrated because I didnt get my menses since December, so I was pretty sure I might be pregnant since I never miss my menses.

Finally, on Saturday I did another test on hubby's request. I was so nervous to see the result, I asked hubby to wait in the living room, and not follow me into the bedroom. So I waited a while, nervous and nearly in tears. I dont know why but I had my hopes quite high that day because Ive noticed some changes with my body. And then I looked.




Alhamdulillah. When I saw the two lines, I was just speechless. I starred at it for a while, forgetting that hubby was waiting outside nervously (I hope). I smiled, just for a second, and then tears started flowing. It was a very, very happy cry. I was planning to come out with a big smile, and jumping up and down (Ive always imagine what Id do when this time comes), but all I could do was cry and cry, walking out from the bedroom to the living room. Hubby immediately stood up and looked at me, surprised and nervous because I was crying. Actually sobbing was the exact word. He asked, "Kenapa? Ok ke tak?", and I just showed him the pregnancy test stick without any word, just crying and sobbing. I knew he didnt know how to read it, it took him a while, and suddenly he just grabbed me and hugged me so tightly without saying anything. And I started crying out loud again. It was a very happy day for the both of us.

1 February 2010

It was our first appointment with the doctor. Just to have a confirmation from him. We've been anxious since last Saturday because all the clinics were closed, and so we had to wait. I showed the doctor the test stick, and the doctor smiled. He said, if its positive, its positive. But I did another urine test just to be sure, and also a blood test. After the appointment, we started talking about baby stuff already. Excited parents-to-be we were.

13 February 2010

Our first antenatal ultrasound appointment. We had to wait for another week after the first dr's appointment because the urine test showed my hcG level is still low, meaning im still early in my pregnancy, about 3-4 weeks. So the doctor asked us to wait for another week for the ultrasound. We went on Saturday because hubby had to work. All radiology are closed at 5pm every weekday. Boring jugak benda-benda macam ni. Kalau kat Malaysia, malam pun bukak lagi. I was practically skipping all the way because I was excited. When I finally was in the room, the nurse put some cold gel on my full-bladder belly, (rasa nk terkucil je bila dia tekan-tekan). And then I saw it. Subhanallah. I was speechless and in awe when I saw the gestational sac. It was still small, just at 5 weeks. When I saw the sac, I feel so blessed, because finally I get to experience it. It is in me, growing.



A week after the scan, we went to see my doctor again to get full results from the scan, and also from the blood test. The doctor was happy to see me, and gave me positive results. My blood test showed me Im a healthy person, alhamdulillah, and the sac is in the right position. So everything is normal.

And then we scheduled for another ultrasound, at 8 weeks to see the fetus, and heartbeat.



4 March 2010

It was Thursday, we couldnt get an appointment on Saturday like we wanted. Initially hubby asked me to go alone, because he couldnt get out from work. But after some pujuk-memujuk session, and a "Tanak tgk baby ke?" line, he agreed. So I picked him up from his office around 12pm and went to the radiology.

We had to wait for a while, and then it was our turn. The nurse was pretty quiet while doing the scanning, and then we saw the sac. It was a little bit peculiar because the sac was empty. I've already studied week by week of the fetal development, and it did not look like it was supposed to. There was no fetus in the sac, and I was pretty sure the was no heartbeat as well. I wasnt very sure if the nurse turned on the volume of the ultrasound, but it was very quiet. I was so nervous, and I kept looking at hubby with a worried look. The nurse asked me if I had any bleeding or any pain at all before this. I told her I had none. I asked her if there was something wrong, but she just smiled and said, "Dont worry. We know nothing for sure yet." And at that time I knew something was wrong. She asked us if it is okay to do a transvaginal ultrasound to have a clearer image. We agreed and signed a paper. But somehow there was no doctor around so they can't proceed, and asked us to go to another branch.

We rushed to Willeton, about 20mins drive and had to wait for another half hour for the doctor. I was already crying the whole time because I knew it was bad news. And then it was it. The transvaginal ultrasound wasnt as scary as it sounds, but the images that we saw was the same as before. Empty sac, no fetus whatsoever and of course, no heartbeat. The doctor explained for a while, and what I heard was "it was a failure. An early pregnancy failure", "you will hemorrhage soon" and "Im very sorry". It happened so quickly and so unexpectedly. I was shocked. I managed a smile to the doctor and the nurse (which was kind, and said she was sorry too), cleaned up, paid the bill and got into the car. I just stared out the window the whole journey home, crying in silent. Hubby didnt know what else to say, and just hold my hands.

Everything happened so fast, I actually wondered if I was in a dream. I slept a lot for a few days after that, waking up, trying to remember, and thinking if it was real. Or maybe I just had a bad dream. And when reality hits me, Id cry myself to sleep again.

It's called blighted ovum, or in a much simpler words, early pregnancy failure. Nothing much to explain there. Apparently it is quite normal, and we nor I did nothing wrong throughout the pregnancy that would have caused it. It just happened. Things do happen. All for the right reasons. Allah have better plans for us, everyone told us over and over again. And I believe them. Id be lying if I say Im perfectly okay now. I still do cry at times when I remembered. Whenever I see myself in the mirror, and touching my belly, I have this feeling of emptiness. Something WAS there. A possible of a new life. But it didnt happen, not quite yet.

So here I am, accepting all the things that has happened, keeping faith in me, Insyallah my time will definately come. May my prayers be answered some day.

Start nak rajin berblog balik?

I bought this today.

Since it's unisex, thought of sharing it with hubby. Gedik kan. Niat dihati beli utk hubby, tapi nak curik2 jugak skali skala hehe

I read the review, ada yg cakap best, ada yang cakap tak best. To me, its very refreshing. Suka jugak lah. Beli pun sbb tgk murahhhhhhhhhhhhhh. Saya suka bila tgk murah2 ni. Rasa nak beli sepuluh je!

Tapi hubby lagi kelakar, tgk baldi kecik comel murah $1, terus amik dua. Tercengang kejap tanya nak buat apa banyak2. Kat rumah dah ada. Dia kata geram tgk murah. Boleh tak??? Haha Nasib baik dia tak beli sepuluh.

Oh ye, next week is a long holiday. Ramai jugak kawan-kawan msian yang nak balik. Easter nak datang dah. Merata-rata jual Easter egg chocolates. Geram tgk sebab cute-cute. Saya ni semua nak geram :p

Because of the holiday, berapa kali hubby tanya, long weekend next week nak pegi mana? Duit tak banyak nak pegi holiday jauh-jauh. So tiba-tiba macam mana tah ada idea nak pegi camping. Harap-harap jadi lah! Pinggan and cawan especially utk camping dah dibeli! haha Gedik sungguh kitorang ni. Lepas beli, rasa mcm tah pape pulak.

I slept petang tadi, sebab pening gila kepala. So now nak dekat 1am still depan laptop. But now, sebab stare depan laptop lama sangat (hubby tgh syok main game bola dia, then tgk bola pulak), pening datang balik. So I better go to sleep now!

So I hope all of you are enjoying your weekend! Good night!

My body is rejecting and getting rid of anything that is not necessary anymore. Whatever that was in there was so precious, now is slowly coming out. It is painful, emotionally and physically.

Ya Allah ya Tuhanku, ku tahu segala ujian yang Kau berikan adalah berdasarkan kemampuanku, apa yang terdaya oleh ku. Sesungguhnya aku redha dengan ketentuanMu.

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Ya Allah! So lama tak updateeeeeeeeee!

Hari-hari tekan "New Post" then akan stare at the screen for 5-10 minutes, then click sign out. Haih. I know I know. Actually I have lots of things to write about, happy stuff, sad stuff, daily stuff etc but I dont know why. I think my brain went dead for a while.

I cant sleep last night. I was tempted to turn on the laptop and begin writing again, but it was kindda cold last night, and it was much warmer and nicer under the blanket hehe. So I chose to bergolek berjam-jam sampai tertido.

Ohhhh Ive changed my number! Finally. I was a bit berat hati utk menukarnya sebab I dont like changes. Its a hassle bila dah tukar number ni, haruslah memberitahu rakan-rakan taulan, baik di Malaysia atau di Perth ni. But to be honest, ramainya tak bagitahu lagi! I think my friends kat sini pun mesti tak tahu nak contact mcm mana heheh. Bila nak call or sms sape2 baru lah terhegeh2 cakap "Ive changed my number tau. Sarah". I didnt even tell my mom my new number sampai lah haritu nk tanya something so I texted, then bagitau, "Oh Umi, ni nombor baru Kaklong." Teruk kan?

I still have my old number dekat Malaysia. Sangatlah reluctant to cancel the number, so I gave it to my little brother to use it. So whenever Im home, haruslah paksa dia bagi simcard tu and he'll be phoneless. Padan muka. Hubby jugak kena tukar number baru everytime dia balik haha

So anyway, sape-sape nak my number (ececehh macamlah ada orang nak), sila lah check di FB. Dah update kat situ sbb malas subhanallah nak pegi sms semua bgtau new number. Im paying my own phone bills now! YIKES! Dah laa super mahal dari last plan haha semua sebab nak phone baru. tamak tamak.

I am sooo sorry sebab lama tak update. Rasa nak update hari-hari balik lah macam dulu. Tapi rasanya akan poyo sedikit. Takpe, akan usaha.

Alasan pertama sebab lama tak update, in January until February I was working. Part-time jadi waitress heheheheh kerja 3-4 hours a day, 4 days a week. So tak tersempat nak berblog. Padahal banyak je time main game dekat FB!

Alasan kedua, ada banyak cerita nak dibagitau tapi nak hold dulu konon-kononnya. So hold lah dulu eventho temptation utk menulis cerita-cerita sangatlah kuat. Tapi still taknak cerita lagi. So bila time sudah tiba nak bercerita, cerita lain pula datang. Maka harus dihold lagi sebab utk memastikan cerita kedua. Hish, memang macam-macam cerita betul lah.

But no worries, Insyallah I'll be writing and updating my boring daily life soon.

Starting today hehe.

Oh yeah, Ayah is coming tomorrow! Panic gila sebab cakap nak dtg this Sunday or Monday. Skali Friday! Panic sbb kena masak hahahahahaha! Ayah if you are reading this, sorry lah if Kaklong kurang masak, or masakan Kaklong kurenggg. Memang tak pakar lagi lah. Nervous nak pikir nak masak apa hari-hari bila Ayah datang nanti. Even hubby pun tanya, "Ayah datang ni nak masak apa???". Selalu kalau malas and takde idea nak masak, I masak nasi goreng saje hihihi tapi divariasikan harini nasi goreng cina, esok nasi goreng kampung, lusa nasi goreng ape tah pulak ;p
(But I tak buat lah begitu hari-hari. Selang-selang dgn lauk jugak hihihi)

So yeah. I hope I can go jalan-jalan with Ayah this weekend. Alhamdulillah sangat happy bila tahu that he's coming here, eventho for work. At least he has the weekend to spend with us :D

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Its not always rainbow and sunshine.

If you were offended by someone, but a long time ago, you'd forgive right? I did. But I didnt forget. So now, its hard when Im in that "sorta" situation again, I want to forgive and forget, but I cant. I forgive, but the scene keep on repeating itself over and over again. Making it hard. Its just a tiny-tiny little thing, that I wish I can forget. Unfortunately, NOT. So I wonder if that person wants to stand up, or just keep quite, until I open my mouth, smiling, and pretending that I forget. And that person will never know, how I actually feel. Then again, I dont think that person realized what had been said, really hurt.

I have my ego too you know.

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Last Saturday, we woke up around 5.30am and met up with Abg Shahid and Kak Nadia at their house around 6.30ish. We then met up with other people (I didnt really know most of them) in Willetton and left for Mandurah around 7.30am. Punya lah lama nak menunggu. Konvoi beramai2. I think there were at least 10 cars.

I cant really remember what time we arrived, but the sun was already on top of our heads. Menyesal tak beli topi bulat besar yg cun utk mengcover muka so that tak hitam. Bila sampai, all the ladies yang ada anak2 semua bentang tikar bawah pokok yg rendang and keluarkan picnic basket masing2. Hubby was too excited to get into the water, so I immediately put on my aqua shoes and amik satu scoop and sengih.

Hubby: "Laa nak jugak pegang scoop ke?"

Me: "Ye lah. Nak tangkap ketam jugak."

Masuk je air, mind you, air kat tepi2 dia sangat lah busuk! Maybe sebab kering kot, banyak gila lalat. Bila dah jauh sikit air dah paras keting, baru laa nampak air bersih. I was a bit anxious and nervous, because hubby reminded me over and over again that if the ketam sepit, SAKIT gila tau. So I spent the whole time looking out for crabs, but not to catch them, but to actually run away! The first time I saw a crab, i screamed, and backing off. Hubby cepat2 patah balik and asked me to catch it. Seriously I was so scared. Last-last hubby yang tolong tangkap ngeh ngeh ngeh. Lepas tu kena buang balik sebab its too small. We cant just simply catch any crabs we see. There's a minimum of 12cm size I think. Correct me if im wrong.

After the first crab encounter, we went further. I think we walked around 500m further out, and the ground was filled with seaweeds. It looks dark and again, scary because you dont know what's hidden under all those weeds. Hubby told me crabs might hide under there, so you have to be extra careful. Bila dah dengar macam tu, lagi lah takut! Air dah sampai paras peha, and hubby was walking faster ahead of me. I was way too nervous and everytime i think i see something in the water, i stopped. And yelled out for hubby to wait for me. And there were times I simply stood there in the water screaming at hubby to help me out. Seriously, now I know that Im a penakut!

After about 2 hours in the water, I told him Ive had enough. And of course, he had to walk back with me ehehehhehee. Plus he's tired too, lagi2 takde sekor pun dapat! Most of the crabs that he (he je ye. I didnt caught anything sebab takut :p ) caught were too small, so he had to throw them back into the water. And he told me last time he went (last year), there were many. Tak payah cari2, nampak je dia keluar. So that day wasnt really a good day to go crabbing anyway.

But the rest of the group caught some. Most of them dalam 2 ekor je, but at least ada than nothing at all!

Here's some of the crabs. Ni hasil bukan seorang ye. Ni ramai2 punya ;) Ada lagi, tapi ni among the first yg naik.

Abg Shahid dengan, rasanya bukan ketam yang dia tangkap. But the biggest of all.

This lil girl, I couldnt remember what's her name, sangat lah berani nk pegang ketam

Actually, there's only 3 pictures for that day, sebab battery habis bila nk snap picture yg ke 4!

Anyway, we left around 11 or 12pm because we were tired. And we were supposed to go to a wedding right? But once we got home, kemas-kemas tukar baju, terus tidur!
hehehehe

Later that evening, we got ready to go to Mussel bar in Fremantle for hubby's company. We didnt have any dinner because of course, we thought it will be a seating dinner. Apparently not! When we got there, everyone was standing and holding a glass each, in the middle of the restaurant with only a few empty tables. I was a bit worried, because we didnt have any lunch that day, just samosas for tea. And when I saw the waiters were holding trays of finger foods, my heart stoppped. GREATTTTTTT. Im guessing its a cocktail party? We're gonna be starving!

So we went through the whole night waiting for the waiters to come around us and offer us the food. Yang bosannya, not all were seafood. So everytime kena tanya ape isi dia. Haih. Nasib baik lapik laa jugak perut. But I cant say that we were really that kenyang pun. So anyway, here's the one and only picture that we took that night. Busy migling around and make conversations lah kononnya ;)



So yeah. All in all, we had a good Saturday ;D

No fireworks?

Happy 2010 everyone.

I know Im 9 days late. But hey, better late than never right?

Its been so long since I wrote anything. I did posts a few, but just a short and sweet ones. Ive been terrible. Managing everything, juggling everything.

Ever since I got back from Malaysia after Eid, Ive been busy. Although I do have time for Facebook, unfortunately none here.

Life has been quite interesting since October. We've moved to the suburb. So Im no longer a "city girl" HA HA. We're living in a three-bedroom house now. Not too big, but not too small either. I'd say just nice, but still plenty of room.

[this is a space for a picture of our house]



November came, and so does friends. November left, and so does friends. Fatin and her family, including her husband and her baby in her bump came to visit Perth, and they stayed for around 10 days. Showed them around, and Fatin and hubby stayed at our house for a couple of days.
Kak Sarie and family left Perth for good. Im going to miss them very much. The sad part was that we didnt get to send them off at the airport as we would have hoped, because of unfortunate circumstances, and bad timing I'd say.

[this should be a space where I put me and kak sarie's picture, including lana. unfortunately, we never took any pictures together. so sad]

Then December came. Fatin went back to Malaysia, a week later Afifah and her cousins came. And they were here for 10 days as well. Had a great time while they were here, and Ifa stayed at our house for a few days. Took her shopping (of course!), and we had a great time on Boxing day. A record, from 9am-5.30pm shopping, non-stop!

[this will be a space where i show off my catch of the day]



One day after Afifa and her cousins left, Aya came, for 4 days. Didnt manage to take her around as much, but took her to Fremantle (we took the Captain Cook Cruise), and also to King's Park. And had a nice evening at the Cottlesloe beach and City beach, watched the last sunset of 2009, and had an early night. Didnt even watch the TV for the fireworks!

And today, its already 9 January 2010.

I missed Iman's birthday, on the 7th! Will have to call Umi and talk to him later. Im anxious to see him in his school uniform. He's 5 this year!

[im still waiting for anyone to send me iman's picture in his uniform so i can put it up here]

Everything is moving so fast, I can barely breathe!

Tomorrow shall be a long, tiring, and interesting (I hope) day. We're leaving at 5.30am to go crabbing in Mandurah, a wedding in Balcatta, and a company dinner in Fremantle. Pheww.

Its already 1am and Im so tired.

I'll write more soon, with pictures. Dont worry. Its one of my new year resolution ;)